Opening myself up—following my path

Go with the flow a friend of mine always says. When you’re on the right path, everything will flow smoothly and things will connect.

My anxiety on the other hand always wants me to stay in my comfort zone—a tiny little box with stiff sides and no room for growth. I know I need to follow where life leads me, especially when things are all connecting and intertwining, fitting together like puzzle pieces that will make up the picture of the new me.

 The unknown, the new can be uncomfortable. I find myself doubting, questioning myself. The anxiety is a powerful thing. A room full of strangers, lots of standing and speaking, I’m struggling with the work in class; those three things combined make it hard on me to follow through, to stick it out. Do I need to try harder or just give up and walk away?

I see my personal growth like a path stretching out before me. If I give up on this class, my path stops and I am forced to turn around and go back the way I came. That’s no fun, I have already been there. Maybe another path with fork off of mine but how long before that happens? This year is my year to grow…..to find the real me and to be comfortable with her, to do this I am sure there will be some uncomfortable moments.

I will keep going to class. I will have to work harder, relax more and be easier on myself. I can do this and this is what I should be doing….one foot in front of the other and breathe…..