Friday, January 21, 2011
In a funk…
What does the future hold for us……..
Wish I knew what the future held. Wish I knew the answers to all my questions.
Are we on the right path? Is there something else I should be doing?
Will that phone call ever come for a better job for Duste?
Ugh—Life and its many questions.
I try to stay positive. I try to line everything up so a good outcome will be ours. I try to do all I can so we can have a better future.
I always stay focused on the bright light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes it is so dim. I just keep my head down and march on.
Ugh—Life and its many twist and turns.
I am not a patient person. I want to know what this year holds for us, right now. Yeah, right now works for me.
I am fighting with myself to stay focused on the things I know.
I know I will soon have my student loan paid off.
I know I will soon have the floors in one room redone.
I know I am healthier than I have ever been—off sleeping pills, off all unnecessary medications, eating better and staying active.
I am also starting a new career. It is just something small I can do at home to earn a little extra money. I always have a plan B. This is just in case the better job for Duste never calls. I am hoping to earn the little extra that we will need to be able to live on just her income.
My happiness is important to me and working 32+hrs a week isn't making me happy. I want to stay home and be available to watch Keaton Michael when his mommy starts her new career.
And then the phone rings—it's Duste on the line with another lay-off scare.
Ugh—Life is so much fun!