Aunt Flow came again. It was maddening! I felt discouraged, upset and pissed off. We spend a lot of money, time and energy towards this goal and it keeps not working! I know it’s only been two tries but that is over $2,000 wasted. Not only is it the money, it is the emotional exhaustion that comes along with it. All we think about is the maybe baby, our lives go on hold.
I was a mess with my emotions this time. One minute I wanted to throw in the towel and never try again and the next I was ready to jump back on the horse. This trying for a baby makes one crazy!
But the decision was made for me by my doctors, we will be taking a few months off.
In March I have my appointment with the thyroid specialist and in April my MRI. All my blood work finally came back—I am low on Vitamin D, Iron levels are low and one of my thyroid test came back high. Normal range is under 9 and I was at 80. From what I can find online that number is pointing towards Hashimoto's Disease. Most people with thyroid problems have this disease so I am confident this doctor can have been feeling wonderful soon!
My symptoms as of right now are minimal. I feel good most days—minor joint pain, some insomnia and hair loss. Some days I am full of motivation, other days it’s a struggle to get off the couch. I feel best when I work out.
Since we are taking a few months off I have decided to go back on my 1,200 calorie diet. I am sick of being upset about my body, it’s time to do something!
We filed our taxes, first time ever filing married!! We ended up owing—because of a mistake Duste made on her W4 and because of the Affordable Healthcare credits I received. Hopefully next year will be better!