Easy Weight Gain---extremely hard weight loss
I can gain 20 lbs in one month—seriously. This is staying
well under 2,000 calories. To lose weight I have to be extremely aggressive; a strict
1,200 calorie diet with cardio 5-7 days a week. Working out for 45minutes at a
time.
Hair Loss—
I only wash my hair once a week because I get 2 or more
handfuls each time and several handfuls when I comb. My hair is limp and
thinning, 10 years ago it was thick and full.
Fatigue—
Some days I have so much energy while others I am tired when
I wake up and need a nap by afternoon. This increases with stress or sickness.
Bowels—
I am always somewhere between constipation and diarrhea;
rarely having a “normal” bowel movement.
Friday I went to an endocrinologist for my thyroid. He rushed
me through my appointment, said he didn’t understand why I was there and really
had no reason to come back until I was pregnant. When I explained my symptoms
he said the famous: Your blood results indicate your thyroid levels are
perfect, none of this is due to your thyroid.
Um….Bull Shit! None of this is “Normal” nothing is perfect,
I don’t care what those damn numbers show. The ranges of the “normal” zone are
so broad how can they prove anything?
So I’m on my own to figure this out.
Currently I am treating my weak immune system and low
vitamin d.
The only treatment for the weight gain in constant
management. I have to stay on a 1,200 calorie diet. Too many slips and I gain
or my weight loss comes to a standstill. I have not figured out the magic number
for weight management.
It is very frustrating, it is very disappointing and can be very
overwhelming and discouraging.
But like life with a rare tumor, being in a same sex
relationship and now this – all you can do is keep fighting for your happiness.
